http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/ Spirit's Reflections Sun, 01 May 2005 01:50:01 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Psychic Paranormal Spirituality http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/42.html Sun, 01 May 2005 08:10:05 GMT So I suppose it is just another phase. To want to recede from everything and totally take a different course in life. This summer I plan to pack many of my things and give them to my mother. She can keep them or sell them. She seems to want to hold onto them, but I do not. My body is tired and although I do not wish to leave this world anytime soon, it is weary from the material confines of it. Since I feel there is some purpose here for me to complete, my only option left is to try to alleviate the feelings I have. Perhaps if I do this, I can better see my life and what it is I came... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=42 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/41.html Sun, 03 Apr 2005 06:38:45 GMT Some time ago I felt like I was overflowing with energy. It was so bad I dropped to the floor and put my palms down on it. It felt as if energy was pooling out and I was sinking through the floor. Well, last night something similar happened again. Except this timeI was more disoriented. My hands weren't as warm, but it felt like I was in two worlds. Like where I see one superimposed over this one. I had started to feel odd after I watched the news and saw about the pope. I prayed and later I lit a white candle and prayed. I went to a chat room and immediately wanted to ask a specific... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=41 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/40.html Sat, 02 Apr 2005 06:00:02 GMT I light a white candle and as I kneel to pray, the flame is totally still. I pray for a soul to be released of suffering and find its way home. I pray for the world to keep the lessons and love in their hearts and continue those teachings. I pray for the soul to finally find peace and free itself of a mere human body and realize its full potential; to finally become one with the universal love that surrounds us all. May that love surround those that only feel pain and loss and comfort them proving that love is never destroyed. May the healing work that was started continue and bring this... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=40 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/39.html Thu, 17 Mar 2005 06:51:16 GMT Lately I have felt the overwhelming need to research grids and something about the number 5. I have also felt very strongly that I am here for a reason and it is important that I find out why. I haven't quite figured it out, but I did end up having a rather interesting meditation. One thing that made this meditation so different was it seemed so closely directed at my life and not in general terms. It also came through so clearly and strongly, as if they were literally right next to me having a conversation in my mind. is like a guy in white holding out his hand he is floating... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=39 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/38.html Sun, 13 Mar 2005 21:32:53 GMT I wonder what this place looks like...a place I know but have never seen. I think there are two places...one with giant waves of clear blue-green washing over a crystal white city. The other place...a place of huge trees that talk and feel with their minds. Trees that see everything and remember. I think these trees also left some seeds here...to remember all that they see and what was in hopes that we may find a better future. There is a deep red sunset here with green forests all around. And yet, you are protected and peaceful. I am not sure where either of these places is, just... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=38 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/37.html Fri, 31 Dec 2004 06:59:36 GMT Why is it you have to devastate yourself to tear down the walls? After watching Gravitation and finding its parallels to my life I broke down. I cried. I really cried. I cried for everything that has happened in the past 26 and a half years. And now I find myself on the edge of something new... Isn't it funny how the soul does not hold onto the pain when it is ready? How it releases it when it is allowed to? Perhaps admidst the uncontrollable tears or the painful convulsions those deep dark feelings were released. Or perhaps it was in a dream I dare not remember. I don't know,... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=37 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/36.html Fri, 17 Dec 2004 20:24:17 GMT **NOTE: In recent discussions I have concluded I was not clear in this post. It does NOT refer to those who seek to remain victims or who like the attention it brings. It refers to normal everyday people leading normal everday lives with normal--or not so normal--crap happening to them.** Hmm...this fascinates me how people can talk in circles over and over and over, never stopping but at the same time claiming it helps. This often happens when people are talking about "giving their power away." Many claim that holding onto pain, negativity, etc is giving their power away to others... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=36 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/35.html Thu, 16 Dec 2004 03:28:31 GMT Recently I had a meditation, vision, channeling, whatever you want to call it that involved something I have never encountered before. From what I looked up afterwards, it sounds like it could possibly have been my twin flame. The feeling was unlike anything I have ever felt before and I have felt different ever since. Here is an exerpt from it: kalla: well, I'm looking at the moon and I don't want to stop looking at night sky. nicobuddy: awww kalla: but when I turn and start to walk... kalla: is like I'm returning to something else. kalla: is like the sky grounds me or... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=35 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/34.html Mon, 06 Dec 2004 06:37:06 GMT I've struggled and struggled with why I am here over the past month or so. Increasingly as I tried to figure it out, more and more people misunderstood me and misinterpreted my actions. I became so frustrated with people's limited judgements I was ready to scream. People who I thought cared, telling me I was this or that or not. I realized, they don't know, they don't understand me and they probably never will. But that is okay. Because that is not why I am here...I am not here to be understood. Although I'm not entirely sure of everything, I am clear on a few issues. First, it... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=34 http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/archive/33.html Wed, 01 Dec 2004 06:17:37 GMT So, I'm having a bit of a hard time in my personal life lately. I had a student yesterday come to me with a major problem, one that I have to report. I told my mom I was upset about it. I haven't been responding well since I got so upset last Tuesday anyway, but now I'm worse. My mother commented that none of this is happening to ME, and I have to separate myself from my students. I told her she could tell me that when she's been in my position. Here's the thing... Everything is connected. Even if you were not standing where the stone fell into the water, the ripples will still... (more) http://akiyume.blogdrive.com/comments?id=33